Many of you reading this are far wiser than I, I’m just an ordinary man who has been through a tremendous amount of hardship, adversity, and suffering in my life and learned from those experiences, and I am still learning. There is so much to say on the topic, impossible to cover it all here. From my observation and experience with others who say they are “aware/awakened,” it can be a term that … [Read more...] about How to Know if You are Awakened?
We try to protect and preserve our "beliefs" because this is who we are, what we are, and what we have based our decisions upon in the past. Our conscious-mind makes all its decision based on the programming of our subconscious mind. Therefore all decisions we make in our life are based on the belief system that was programmed into our subconscious mind when we were younger, what we learned … [Read more...] about Get Rid of Those Old Belief Systems Once and For All
And it was the middle of a school day and work day. Even if I could find the strength and breath to scream, I knew no one was going to hear me, let alone help me. We had a six-foot privacy fence in our backyard. As far as the world was concerned, I was invisible. I wasn’t going to make it. I was going to die, and my sisters were going to die if they weren’t dead already. Then I felt something … [Read more...] about Chapter 1 ~ Conclusion
So I turned and faced the garage door again. I had to command my legs to take each step. But it felt like something other than my own mind and will was driving me. Whatever that great power was, without it, I wouldn’t have continued. That trip across the floor to the garage seemed to take an hour, but finally, I made it, still on my feet, still conscious, barely. But once inside the garage, I … [Read more...] about Chapter 1 ~ part 4
Then a virgin thought entered my mind: This is what death feels like. I’m going to die. It wasn’t some whimsical notion. I knew clearly that my time to die had arrived, and I surrendered to the fact. Not only couldn’t I breathe, I couldn’t even manage to keep my eyes open. I was weak. My body was limp, and all I wanted to do was lie down and drift away. I felt like my whole body was wrapped in … [Read more...] about Chapter 1 ~ part 3
We all thanked her and went back downstairs to watched TV while we devoured the treat. At first, my sisters didn’t see any of the special bits in their bowls, but then they too found the pieces marked with an S. A few minutes later, my mom came down the stairs with a blanket draped over her arm. In one hand she had a hammer, in the other a box of nails. “What’s that stuff for, Mom?” I … [Read more...] about Chapter 1 cont. 2
Even now, more than forty years after the fact, I still have a hard time believing that my mother tried to murder my sisters and me. That event, obviously, changed my life forever. Initially, it put me on a downward path into the darkest place imaginable. Evil came into my world. Yes, I do believe evil exists, but it was only by passing through the darkness of evil that I was able to find the joy … [Read more...] about Chapter 1 ~ Lethal Ice Cream
When you decide to go after your goals, dreams, or follow your passion remember there is always that one person you can count on to keep you focused, keep you centered and keep you motivated. Talking to people over the years about what they want to do with their life, even my own life, I found that some people who are even the closest to us do not give us the encouragement, support, or approval … [Read more...] about Why Some People Almost Always Live The Life They Want